You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Come let me love you, let me give my life to you,
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.
Let me give my life to you,
Come let me love you, come love me again.
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again. ~ John Denver
I've talked some about The Holy Spirit. When I started working with Dr. Sunny Marie Shelly; a psychic, doctor, and a complete and total sweetheart, with wisdom that pours out from the sweetness of her being, I'd tell her: "I can't go to church. The minute I step in the door, or the very anticipation of it makes me so anxious I can hardly stand it. I go into panic mode. I become a complete basket case." Whenever I'd bring up a situation that involved this kind of irrational fear, she'd say to me, "go right into prayer mode. Your higher integrity. Lift those people's fear and your own up to Spirit." I kind of got what she meant, and bless my struggling heart in chains, I tried. But the fear would come at me and from inside me so thick and fast, I just couldn't handle this part of myself. I was still too wounded from the 21 yrs. experience in the church. I finally decided that I wasn't going to stress myself out anymore. As said by Eckart Tolle author of The Power of Now, spiritual teacher and source of unbelievable insight and inspiration, when he talked about dropping a negative thought; "How do you do it? You just do. You just drop it. Like you'd drop hot potato." I still keep my distance from the church, but I've been doing the one and only powerful thing I can do; heal myself. Trust in God, and the rest will follow. My testimony is that it has; in remarkably deep and profound ways. In the days, months that have followed since I made a conscious decision to grow out of my identity as a "Unificationist." or "Moonie", and seriously begun my path in seeking my eternal and true identity in God, He has brought to me incredible materials and insights of others through which I have had incredible break-through s. I have begun to understand what Dr. Sunny meant by "Lift it up to Spirit." Through reading Marianne Williamson's A Return to Love, my breakthrough came when I was introduced to the Holy Spirit.
In A Return To Love Marianne Williamson explains how A Course in Miracles talks about the Holy Spirit being what God, the source of unconditional love created as a messenger of peace, hope and teacher of the Divine Self to humanity, when humanity lost touch with its identity as the sons and daughters of love, of God. The first time I called on the Holy Spirit to help me see my situation differently, I had an incredible experience in a shift in my perception; from one that was full of judgment and malice for myself that I've held for many, many years, to one that was of an incredible acceptance, wisdom and healing of myself, that can be non other than that of love. When I was made aware of this spiritual teacher of love, an incredible extension of the love of God, it is as if a glorious door to heaven was open to me. As I practice to live my life in what many spiritual teachers call "The Now" or "The Present", which I further discovered to be the practice of unconditional love, which I am further discovering is a depth of heart that is hard to express in writing; it is if fact the return to myself- I have a spiritual companion, teacher, with whom I am learning to put my entire trust in. The job of the Holy Spirit, in my limited, but powerful non-the-less experience is to remove our blocks, to open the windows of our minds so that we may discover the depths of love behind the illusion of pain, suffering and ultimately self-loathing and fear. Through my trust in the Holy Spirit, I create the "condition" or "space" in which I allow myself to experience myself, experience love. The best way I can describe this experience of a shift in perception from that of fear, or the false imprisoned self (the ego) to that of love is with the words of the song by John Denver, "You Fill Up My Senses." When I allow the Holy Spirit to work with me, by letting go of fear in the presence of my light, a powerful presents that is totally me, yet in my heart I'm feeling love being given to me from a powerful force that is greater than me, will "fill up my senses." The pressure in my head, the guilt and terror in my heart are dwindled to nothingness. My spirit and the spirit of God are one, as they always are - it's just the illusion of separateness is gone.
This essay is in fact called "Miracle on a Bus," so I'm going to get on with the story. The Holy Spirit plays a huge part in the miracle, so I wanted to set the stage ~
That morning that I road the the subway, I had woken up to find the love of the Spirit calling me to go to Boston. Having no specific plan that day that my ego could otherwise obsess over, it was a powerful shift in thinking that would change my life; I relinquished all my fears to his love, I felt a deep intelligence in the love that filled my senses, and knew God knows what he's doing -I don't have to worry.
On the green line, a man came into the car I was in and began begging profusely for money. Nobody budged to help him. I could immediately start to feel myself clamp up and my mind started to go into a habitual mild panic. But I wasn't going to let my mind indulge in it. I asked the Holy Spirit to help me relinquish my fears and bring some clarity. I immediately felt the presence of the Spirit surround me and protect me from the negative energy and aggressive words coming from this man. Even so, I began to feel very overwhelmed by the tensity of the people in the bus. The man had come and sat right next to me. It occurred to me in a powerful way that this was no coincidence; he felt the presence of the Spirit.
In A Return to Love Marianne Williamson talks about how A Course in Miracles says that a miracle, is in fact a shift in consciousness from fear to love. A miracle is when we transcend the insane illusions and hallucinations of the ego and we connect right into our true power; the love inside of us. This is a miracle. Feeling very overwhelmed at this point I surrendered my mind and silently asked God for a miracle; a shift in my perception, of myself and this situation. The answer I received, the shift was a powerful one. I felt my mind fill with the presence of God/love. It occurred to me that the greatest gift I could give this man is the love of God. Next, it dawned on me that I could give him my change - the words of Eckart Tolle came as a still voice in my mind, "A loaf of bread will not feed a starving man forever, it is the exchange of a common "being" or "divine" that will last forever; in which, the bread is only a symbol."
I remember reaching to unzip my purse and a cold hand of self-consciousness gripped me - at that point, nothing was going to stop pure love. I again asked the Holy Spirit to help me transcend my self consciousness, and like a perfect gentleman He did - as always. I took out my change and dropped in the man's hat he was holding out. The Spirit and were one; I put my hand ion his back and gave him a smile. I could feel the love of my being protecting me, yet giving to him. His thank you moved my heart. Then, something remarkable happened: The people around us began to get up and give him their change. The same people who I had seen shrink in terror and guilt at their own closed-ness were smiling and taking the time to make eye contact with him. He then moved on to the next car. There was so much filling the car at this point, I could feel all of us become one in a our common Divine love; he was not a beggar and we were not all separate passengers going our separate ways; we were a family, an ocean of love. The Spirit fully moving me at this point I got up and walked over to where he was now sitting and imploring the people for money and I dropped the rest of the change I found in my purse into his hat. The gates were open now; people all around that area began throwing in their change as well. The man was ecstatic - right before he left the car as it stopped at Charles MHG, he called out to the train "thank you everybody. This was the best train all day!" The sound of his voice was so joyful, and the victory of love over selfishness so beautiful.
As the trained slowed to my stop, I felt the Spirit tell me, "because of what you were able to do today, you opened the hearts of all these people and they could experience my love. You witnessed the dissolving of walls in the presence of true, unending love. Thank you. This is where you greatness lies."
What the Spirit meant was that this is the reality of all of us. This couldn't have happened if this wasn't true. I wept when I heard the song above by John Denver, because I felt the passion and depth of love that God has for all of humanity. He so wants us to be free. He wants us to see what he sees; an infinitely precious, lovable and great child. We are His children. When we hide from love we are hiding from ourselves - we are missing out on the greatest, most passionate love relationship there is; that between God and man. When we are free to experience ourselves; powerful love, we automatically experience it for all of humanity. There is nothing more precious then this love.
Marianne Williamson ends her book A Return to Love with these words:
" With our prayers we invite Him in, He who is already there. With prayer, we speak to God. with miracles, He responds. The endless chain of communication between God and man, is the most beautiful song,the sweetest poem. It is the highest art and the most passionate love.
...and with a prayer from A Course in Miracles she ends;
'Dear God,
I give this day to you, the fruit of my labor
and the desires of my heart. In your hands I
place all questions, on your shoulders I place all
burdens. I pray for my brothers and for myself.
May we return to love. May our minds be healed.
May we be blessed. May we find our way
home, from pain to peace, from fear to love,
from hell to Heaven.
Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth
as it is in Heaven.
For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power
and the Glory.
Forever and ever.
Amen.' "
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again.
Come let me love you, let me give my life to you,
Let me drown in your laughter, let me die in your arms.
Let me lay down beside you, let me always be with you
Come let me love you, come love me again.
Let me give my life to you,
Come let me love you, come love me again.
You fill up my senses like a night in a forest,
Like the mountains in springtime,
Like a walk in the rain, like a storm in the desert,
Like a sleepy blue ocean.
You fill up my senses, come fill me again. ~ John Denver
I've talked some about The Holy Spirit. When I started working with Dr. Sunny Marie Shelly; a psychic, doctor, and a complete and total sweetheart, with wisdom that pours out from the sweetness of her being, I'd tell her: "I can't go to church. The minute I step in the door, or the very anticipation of it makes me so anxious I can hardly stand it. I go into panic mode. I become a complete basket case." Whenever I'd bring up a situation that involved this kind of irrational fear, she'd say to me, "go right into prayer mode. Your higher integrity. Lift those people's fear and your own up to Spirit." I kind of got what she meant, and bless my struggling heart in chains, I tried. But the fear would come at me and from inside me so thick and fast, I just couldn't handle this part of myself. I was still too wounded from the 21 yrs. experience in the church. I finally decided that I wasn't going to stress myself out anymore. As said by Eckart Tolle author of The Power of Now, spiritual teacher and source of unbelievable insight and inspiration, when he talked about dropping a negative thought; "How do you do it? You just do. You just drop it. Like you'd drop hot potato." I still keep my distance from the church, but I've been doing the one and only powerful thing I can do; heal myself. Trust in God, and the rest will follow. My testimony is that it has; in remarkably deep and profound ways. In the days, months that have followed since I made a conscious decision to grow out of my identity as a "Unificationist." or "Moonie", and seriously begun my path in seeking my eternal and true identity in God, He has brought to me incredible materials and insights of others through which I have had incredible break-through s. I have begun to understand what Dr. Sunny meant by "Lift it up to Spirit." Through reading Marianne Williamson's A Return to Love, my breakthrough came when I was introduced to the Holy Spirit.
In A Return To Love Marianne Williamson explains how A Course in Miracles talks about the Holy Spirit being what God, the source of unconditional love created as a messenger of peace, hope and teacher of the Divine Self to humanity, when humanity lost touch with its identity as the sons and daughters of love, of God. The first time I called on the Holy Spirit to help me see my situation differently, I had an incredible experience in a shift in my perception; from one that was full of judgment and malice for myself that I've held for many, many years, to one that was of an incredible acceptance, wisdom and healing of myself, that can be non other than that of love. When I was made aware of this spiritual teacher of love, an incredible extension of the love of God, it is as if a glorious door to heaven was open to me. As I practice to live my life in what many spiritual teachers call "The Now" or "The Present", which I further discovered to be the practice of unconditional love, which I am further discovering is a depth of heart that is hard to express in writing; it is if fact the return to myself- I have a spiritual companion, teacher, with whom I am learning to put my entire trust in. The job of the Holy Spirit, in my limited, but powerful non-the-less experience is to remove our blocks, to open the windows of our minds so that we may discover the depths of love behind the illusion of pain, suffering and ultimately self-loathing and fear. Through my trust in the Holy Spirit, I create the "condition" or "space" in which I allow myself to experience myself, experience love. The best way I can describe this experience of a shift in perception from that of fear, or the false imprisoned self (the ego) to that of love is with the words of the song by John Denver, "You Fill Up My Senses." When I allow the Holy Spirit to work with me, by letting go of fear in the presence of my light, a powerful presents that is totally me, yet in my heart I'm feeling love being given to me from a powerful force that is greater than me, will "fill up my senses." The pressure in my head, the guilt and terror in my heart are dwindled to nothingness. My spirit and the spirit of God are one, as they always are - it's just the illusion of separateness is gone.
This essay is in fact called "Miracle on a Bus," so I'm going to get on with the story. The Holy Spirit plays a huge part in the miracle, so I wanted to set the stage ~
That morning that I road the the subway, I had woken up to find the love of the Spirit calling me to go to Boston. Having no specific plan that day that my ego could otherwise obsess over, it was a powerful shift in thinking that would change my life; I relinquished all my fears to his love, I felt a deep intelligence in the love that filled my senses, and knew God knows what he's doing -I don't have to worry.
On the green line, a man came into the car I was in and began begging profusely for money. Nobody budged to help him. I could immediately start to feel myself clamp up and my mind started to go into a habitual mild panic. But I wasn't going to let my mind indulge in it. I asked the Holy Spirit to help me relinquish my fears and bring some clarity. I immediately felt the presence of the Spirit surround me and protect me from the negative energy and aggressive words coming from this man. Even so, I began to feel very overwhelmed by the tensity of the people in the bus. The man had come and sat right next to me. It occurred to me in a powerful way that this was no coincidence; he felt the presence of the Spirit.
In A Return to Love Marianne Williamson talks about how A Course in Miracles says that a miracle, is in fact a shift in consciousness from fear to love. A miracle is when we transcend the insane illusions and hallucinations of the ego and we connect right into our true power; the love inside of us. This is a miracle. Feeling very overwhelmed at this point I surrendered my mind and silently asked God for a miracle; a shift in my perception, of myself and this situation. The answer I received, the shift was a powerful one. I felt my mind fill with the presence of God/love. It occurred to me that the greatest gift I could give this man is the love of God. Next, it dawned on me that I could give him my change - the words of Eckart Tolle came as a still voice in my mind, "A loaf of bread will not feed a starving man forever, it is the exchange of a common "being" or "divine" that will last forever; in which, the bread is only a symbol."
I remember reaching to unzip my purse and a cold hand of self-consciousness gripped me - at that point, nothing was going to stop pure love. I again asked the Holy Spirit to help me transcend my self consciousness, and like a perfect gentleman He did - as always. I took out my change and dropped in the man's hat he was holding out. The Spirit and were one; I put my hand ion his back and gave him a smile. I could feel the love of my being protecting me, yet giving to him. His thank you moved my heart. Then, something remarkable happened: The people around us began to get up and give him their change. The same people who I had seen shrink in terror and guilt at their own closed-ness were smiling and taking the time to make eye contact with him. He then moved on to the next car. There was so much filling the car at this point, I could feel all of us become one in a our common Divine love; he was not a beggar and we were not all separate passengers going our separate ways; we were a family, an ocean of love. The Spirit fully moving me at this point I got up and walked over to where he was now sitting and imploring the people for money and I dropped the rest of the change I found in my purse into his hat. The gates were open now; people all around that area began throwing in their change as well. The man was ecstatic - right before he left the car as it stopped at Charles MHG, he called out to the train "thank you everybody. This was the best train all day!" The sound of his voice was so joyful, and the victory of love over selfishness so beautiful.
As the trained slowed to my stop, I felt the Spirit tell me, "because of what you were able to do today, you opened the hearts of all these people and they could experience my love. You witnessed the dissolving of walls in the presence of true, unending love. Thank you. This is where you greatness lies."
What the Spirit meant was that this is the reality of all of us. This couldn't have happened if this wasn't true. I wept when I heard the song above by John Denver, because I felt the passion and depth of love that God has for all of humanity. He so wants us to be free. He wants us to see what he sees; an infinitely precious, lovable and great child. We are His children. When we hide from love we are hiding from ourselves - we are missing out on the greatest, most passionate love relationship there is; that between God and man. When we are free to experience ourselves; powerful love, we automatically experience it for all of humanity. There is nothing more precious then this love.
Marianne Williamson ends her book A Return to Love with these words:
" With our prayers we invite Him in, He who is already there. With prayer, we speak to God. with miracles, He responds. The endless chain of communication between God and man, is the most beautiful song,the sweetest poem. It is the highest art and the most passionate love.
...and with a prayer from A Course in Miracles she ends;
'Dear God,
I give this day to you, the fruit of my labor
and the desires of my heart. In your hands I
place all questions, on your shoulders I place all
burdens. I pray for my brothers and for myself.
May we return to love. May our minds be healed.
May we be blessed. May we find our way
home, from pain to peace, from fear to love,
from hell to Heaven.
Thy Kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth
as it is in Heaven.
For Thine is the Kingdom, and the Power
and the Glory.
Forever and ever.
Amen.' "