"Love is real. It is an eternal creation and nothing can destroy it.
Anything that isn't love is an illusion.
Remember this, and you will be at peace." - From A Return to Love by Marianne Williamson
It's amazing, the grip that fear has over us. It's amazing, the persistent voice inside our head that degrades us on consistent basis. Manifestation happens from the inside out; the thoughts, the energy that we choose to embrace are the ones that are going to manifest themselves. The ones spouting from different levels of fear and unconsciousness have made themselves present in our world as diseases, neurosis, anxiety, depression, sexual confusion/imbalance, drug addiction, eating disorders...and the list goes on and on.
I want to talk about love again, as the solution, because it is the essence of who we are. It is within us that true healing begins, because it is in each one of us that the core of all life begins, and that is love.
Many spiritual teachings that I have studied, talk about the darkness, about fear, the part of us that is not love, as a hallucination. Most of them talk about a small, separate, fearful self as the Ego - it itself was created the moment the seed of fear was planted in the mind of mankind, and is in fact, in itself a hallucination. It is a disease. Like cancer, like HIV, like tumors, it pierces the soul, like those diseases pierce the body, and it seems to the human being that the pain in our hearts, in our minds is impossible to remove - like the world, impossible to heal, because the problems seem so many, and the pain it seems, so deep.
Now I'm going to paint a picture, that will support what I am trying to say about love, as the essence of the healing process and the solution and the answer to individual peace, therefore World Peace: I had terrible poison ivy not once, not twice, but three summers in my lifetime. The rash that I get are these huge boils that puss and ooze, and spread like crazy. Before I know it, I'm covered in poison ivy within a week after touching it. The reason there is a rash in the first place is because the body is using it's built-in mechanism of white-cells being the cleansers by creating openings to rid the body of the poison. This impulse is automatic - it's actually amazing how powerful life is, even as humanity continues to function out of fear. My mind was a total mess; I developed a severe phobia of poison ivy. In short I was functioning out of the fearful, hallucinating self - I was freaking out. The actual the fact of the matter is, from a very early age, I experienced and was exposed to very heavy energies of rage, abandonment, sexual confusion and misconduct - very early on I had been taught to fear and not accept myself and to love myself. Not having the tools or the knowledge growing up to even begin to know who I really am, I embraced this pain and dealt with it in the only way I was taught how: tough it out.
From the very first time that I really experienced love - I have started a purging process. Like the body; which is the manifestation of the internal, which purged itself of the poison ivy, my mind, my psyche has begun a purging process. I am convinced that my body could have healed much more thoroughly, and I wouldn't have still held onto the emotional trauma if I had some sense of love, who I am. As love, the essence of me is taking a firmer hold and presents, it seems all of a sudden, old, old traumas, terrors, anxieties and dark memories have come up out of the past to haunt me again. The fact is, they never left. They are stored inside of me. With love being the catalyst for healing, I am purging the poison of 21 years.
My most recent vision has been to rid myself of my demons; basically pain, forever. By taking command, and making the conscious choice to embrace, or plug into the energy of who I am, love - with that sense of balance I direct my thoughts to the vision of a brand new life, for me. I am bringing my focus out of my pain and into the dream of a life purged of my pain. In this focus I am literally leaning on the arms of the universe which is the Power of the Divine, or Love- that comes from inside of me, creating oneness, and I am manifesting, together with the support of the entire cosmos, my peace of mind and liberation.
Love, the recognition of your power, is the catalyst for this change. It seems at times that our situation becomes worse when love is found, but that is what I call the purging process. In the discovery that you, love has the ultimate power and control, you can literally, when an unwanted thought, a fearful thought enters your mind, toss it out on the spot, tell it to never come back. However, many of these memories are tenacious and painful, this is why love is always, always, the foundation for this process - always know that it is really who you are. The strength to envision the impossible, and to know that it is possible is there because I remind myself first and foremost "I love you." I say it a thousand times a day to stay in the vibration, the power, the comfort, and oneness of me, of love. As the monster - the collective energy of my past is roaring and fighting because it knows in the presents of love, it will die, I always know to choose to stay in the realm of my power - the love inside of me. From that power, I empower myself even more with my dreams to be liberated, and cleansed of this heaviness that has plagued me my entire life. I allow love, to teach me, that I can do anything, that nothing is impossible to bring about - because with love, all things are possible, because only love is real.
Just as we have brought about a world of destruction, because it is in fact, the manifestation of the way the Ego hates itself - in the recognition that who we are is love, and that we actually have the choice to choose what thoughts, what emotions that we want in ourselves - and to recognize that we have the courage to stand up to our demons and say "GET OUT!" - so we can embrace love's energy and power, heal ourselves- and with this realization of self love - there is the powerful uninhibited impulse to give it. Love is energy - embrace yourself in it, wrap yourself in it, and pass it on.